Do Not Weep On My Ashes

Here lies my ashes,

Here lies my remains.

Cry if you want,

Weep if you must

But then I am gone to the world,

Gone to this happy living earth.

Living on this earth,

Each moment, each hour,

Striking down on my survival,

Lack of air supply,

Lack of reasons to stick on.

Have to move on,

Have to try the next stage,

Death is dear, life so much more dearer,

But it all had to end, someday, sometime.

Laughing out loud now that I am gone.

Its been such a joke that nobody got a clue,

Nobody knew the torments from within.

At this moment, I wish, life was different.

That I didn't make those mistakes

That you left me for.

But, such is life. Honey

Love you always, love you till your end.

That is my last testimony.

I love you.

Some New Insights

On a Saturday afternoon, after a pleasant conversation with a complete stranger, I am getting some new insights about the life I've been leading uptill now. It is confusing indeed to not know what to pick, from an array of choices that life has to offer. But then one again one wonders, have those choices been really offered or am I just trying to boost my own ego?

This life of singledom sure is playing tricks on my mind. While I flit from person to person, trying to place my hooks in the right one, I get played everytime. So what does this old girl want???

Just a little bit of understanding, sympathy, care and affection. Seriously these are things highly overpriced and men find it so difficult to dole out. Forget men, everyone in this generation has a problem with freely giving out. It is as if the whole world is out to see where the free goods come from and nobody is willing to pay a price.

Simpler was the generation when all folks had to do was choose their mate, work for one's basic sustenance and make babies. No complicated thoughts of whether "this" is the one or not. If it is'nt then old school proposes,"dude deal with it,you don't have another choice." What do we have now? Just look at the mind staggering number of breakups one has to witness all around and even in one's own life....

Its a fact that my life has been no different from the other confused people of my generation. It is indeed funny that Ive been into so many relationships. Its a surprise I still have'nt quit. Time and again, my dad asks me what am I looking for?I reply "Love." He laughs hard, tousles my head and asks me to get real. In spite of all my misadventures, why do I get the feeling that things will turn around and that I'll find true everlasting love like the kinds one dreams about??? That my knight in shining armour would come riding on his pure white horse and take me away....

Is that why people keep trying?Perfection is what I just dreamt about and I suppose that is what everyone seeks in life. A perfect relationship, a perfect love. But what is perfection? It is something like happiness. Not unlike the title of the movie "A Pursuit to Happiness", perfection can be strived for but achieving it completely can only be an ongoing pursuit. Reaching a definite perfection would after all leave us all too jobless and dead to do anything more. Challenges are what makes and defines us. Challenges in a relationship and the way in which one encounters it, is what makes life so exciting.

So my advice to all people in love, afraid of love and looking for love, keep trying untill you succeed. I believe happiness is just around the corner. Keep a wary eye on the horizon because you'd never know when lightning could strike and change your life for better or worse. I am crossing fingers fro myself as well.

My principles-Articles of Association

Friday, September 26, 2008

Was talking to a friend today and the person asked me what are my depths and limits...
a very deep question i must say,i din know what to blab
so i jus bragged and said i have no limits
thats when i realised,my sayin that gives a thoroughly wrong impression of me
u know wat i mean!!!
so i thought of coverin up that remark of mine with something more formal
so i said i have certain principles in life.he wont stop pestering and asked me what those principles are. on the process of fibbing i discovered that i do have certain principles in life.it was a funny discovery especially for someone who lives life on the edge(me). well here goes....
1. i wont step into any relationship or friendship without seeing a profit in it, n the word kind is Very exhaustive
2. id do anythin for the one i love.Anything.the one i love could include friend,bfs,family etc
3. i forgive but never forget
4. i never regret my past even if it was the most horrible one, live life in the present and dont care at all about the future

well whoever is interested in being my friend,better read my articles of association
this company has a strict policy of following all the principles to the word.

Too Familiar

Monday, February 22, 2010

My splitting image
Laughs at me
From behind the mirror
Sides of the mirror
Is cracked, splotched
And festering with worms
I'm too familiar with myself
That the darkness is slipping
With love I try to patch it up
The gaping holes I try to close
But the familiarity is choking me
A leering grin appears on its face
"Fool you cant run away"
It says
"I know you too well,
You cant escape"
Who said anything of escape?
I love you, I need you
I go closer
Hugging the mirror
Till I am It and It is me
Shards of self awareness
Blinds my inner self
But I wont let go
Heart's bleeding but I won't go

Protection of the Rights of Slaves

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Through some godforsaken practice they rose to the position of rulers, and leaders of superpowers, while women became their slaves. Bible declares women to have come from the rib of man. I am nobody to point a finger at a religious gospel and its scientific validity, but was God really a male chauvinist, when he made this earth?! And for this kind gesture on part of the men, women are forever indebted to men, no matter what price they pay?!

This is no cry for liberalization. This is sheer wrath against the principle that men can get away with anything. There were the cave ages, when no morals were known. Men and women shared responsibility, while men hunted the caves; women took care of the family and fed their men. They procreated too, which led to continuation of our race up till now. How come people forget that part so easily? There was no discrimination then and wherever there seemed like a disparity, there was no civilized society to take care of it. What about now? So many written laws, so many forums, so many international conferences to uphold the women’s rights against so many wrongs; now suddenly women are the victims. Forget the liberalization movement! Forget the women empowerment! It’s all a farce to keep the society look good in the eyes of the beholders. The inside story is so different. It is not the lack of laws or mechanisms that trouble the women. It’s the misplaced conception in the society that men can get away with anything. In effect, their egos have been blown up to such an extent that there is no way to deflate them. Even the meekest of the lot, know it in their hearts that their women will forgive them whatever they do. Boyfriends, husbands, fathers, brothers, strange men in the buses, all realize that the woman is afraid to react. She feels she’ll be crucified for any revolt that she makes. She fears being called the ice queen or the vamp or the slave driving professional or even a dictator. She can never aim for the stars because then no man will want to settle down with her. Oh there have been plenty of woman who reached the top, but look at what prices they had to pay!!! The recent episode in the pubs of India, wherein women got bashed up for drinking, is a perfect example of how men have set up a cliché for themselves, to which no woman has a right. Scores of incidents are happening around us, maybe in our own lives where we see and experience abuse at their hands.

It is not that women are afraid to react to this abuse, be it at the hands of their husbands, boyfriends, bosses and other men in their lives. They merely want to work it out. There are many who give up this attempt. They end up either being failures in life or women on top, who are ready to sacrifice everything because sacrificing is easier than making an attempt at setting things right. This is a call to all those women who are proud to be called so and at all those men who think they rule. If the women folk are being nice to you, ever forgiving and patient, it is not because they are losers or they are afraid of you leaving them. They just want to give it another shot. They just love you so much. Learn to appreciate them you men folk!!! Take notice.

Home

You are like home to me
Something so familiar,
Reminding me of the freshly cut grass,
Close to my heart.
Like the lingering warm scent in my mother's linen,
...Like the aroma out of a cup of ground coffee,
You are my home,
And there is nothing like being at home.....

Loving Is Not That Easy

Happiness is a distant dream,
Through the path of trials,
Through the tribulations and struggles
Things may not be as they seem

Loving someone is not that easy,
Loving yourself is what comes first,
But when you weigh out your aspirations,
The heart is boggled and mind goes dizzy.

I have only one true wish,
The thought of seeing tomorrow,
The aim is to reach an end to the path,
And after that it'll all be hush.......