Sunday, August 5, 2007

newest poem

Mercy!!

What did u think,
When u kissed me with passion
That the touch was washable,
And that you could be forgotten?

What did u think,
When u held me in ur arms
That this was a memory
That would fade away with time?

In this show of life
You’ve left me, a joker
I play and I entertain
While u’ve become the innocent bystander.

What was my crime?
For which I’ve bin punished for eternity
Id love to burn in hell
But this is worse than that

Ur touch has branded me
Has seared my soul deep within
This touch would never erase,
What has happened between us.

U blame urself
U call urself an emotional jerk
Oh I know that game
I’ve played it once myself.

Is that my crime?
Mercy oh God! Mercy!
I‘ve sinned without shame
But here I am asking for ur mercy

Be kind enough to end this pain
To let me die in ur arms
U’ve already killed me
One more time, will not hurt.

Mercy!!!

Friday, April 13, 2007

More poems

Lonely Candle
I reach the grave
And light the candles
To mark the peace, for dead ones
Peace was everywhere
Spread like a blanket
Over the silent graves
As a gust of wind passes
All the flames were subdued
Except one….
It rose higher and higher
It rose the highest
As the wind passed on
The subdues flames rose up
Trying to touch the heaven
The lonely candle rose up
But came down soon
Marking its end
Its life is over
Man is the same
Like the lonely candle
He too rises up
And climbs the steps of success
He rises and falls
Through the way he goes
Like the lonely candle
His life also ends
He returns to the soil
From where he was a visitor
Like the lonely candle.



Fate Cannot Decide
When the going gets tough
The tough gets going
When your heart fails you
Just don’t blame fate
Do not fall to pieces
And let fate decide.
Fate cannot decide
That’s a wrong notion
Stand up to the world
Stand up with strength
I ain’ t afraid of my fate
Fate cannot decide
Trouble may come once in a while
Or they come in a line.
You don’t care, do you?
Your strength is with you
So next time you fear failure
Don’t sit idle and just wait
You can work wonders
Do exactly that.



Just Watch
I sat there
Doing nothing but watching
Watching what?
Oh! Nothing but the rubbles and remains of the house that housed me all these years
All is over
Loneliness is my companion
Along with a trillion spirits of the dead
You ask me, who am I?
I answer that
I am one of those trillions,
Who were helpless against the fury of nature
We could just watch
Watch the fury wrench off
Millions of homes and lives
Which were ours.
It has been long,
Since that fateful day.
But the wounds remain
Some believe that death alone can help them
While some live…
Trying to see the sun rise the next day
They want to live
And that’s the spirit.
Live through the memories
Memories of all that happened
On the fateful day of Jan 26th
When we were helpless against the fury of nature
We could just stand
Just watch.



No Longer
No longer do you seem
To like me, dear friend
No longer do I see
The white of peace
And the lover’s red

There were times
When we fought
The silence not long
Again we came together
For it was friendship we sought

There were times
When I cried
You cried along with me
You pacified with me
And along with me, you sighed

Circumstances changed
Changed are you too
Where did I go wrong?
For you to hate me
What did I do?



Gone, Not Forever
Those were times
Really good ones
When we got wet
Together in the rain
Dancing to the rhythm
Nature was playing for us
She was happy,
Not envious
Of our friendship
Those times were great
When we sat in the sun
Basking in the warmth
Of friendship so unique and pure
Sun was glad
Not jealous
Of the relationship we shared
God alone knows
When all this got over!
Did Nature become envious?
Or did the Sun loathe us?
When did it all go wrong?
These questions, I ask alone
My friend is gone
Not forever,
But yes, gone…



Behold the Beauty
Behold the beauty
Look through eyes of wonder
Our precious nature
How green, how bountiful!!

Behold the beauty
After she is all wet
When the heaven poured down
Blessing her and us,
The beholders

Behold the beauty
When she covers herself
With a blanket
As white as white could be
How she breathes
Cool vapor
Cooling our hearts
The beholders

Behold the beauty
When she is on fire
How she pouts and puffs
With vibrant hues and colors
When the bloody sun
Beats down on her
She’s hot!!
She warms our hearts,
And our souls.

The beholders,
Behold her beauty
Of nature
The mother of all life…



Truly Alive
Life- an extravagant affair
Got to play along
Got to please the world
Show off- the key word.
Smile, when does not want to
Cry, when one does not need to
Forget what you need.
Think of what others think
It could be so expensive
Gambling away….
Not caring about
What one loses on the way
Life- a losing game
Where you are the player
And you yourself are the victim
Rejoice and cry for yourself
‘You are the master of your fate’
Don’t believe that
You can’t decide your life
The world decides it for you
Have you woken up?
From the pleasant dream
Dream on freedom, peace, and happiness
Just don’t be sad
Because all that was just a dream



Beauty of Sorrow
Sorrow in the cloudy black skies
Sorrow in the wail of a sparrow
Sorrow in the colors I see
I’ve painted my world black
Now it’s hard to get it off
Addicted to life’s despair
There is nothing I can do
Shame and grief fill my soul
As I walk lone
Looking all around, I see joy
But it’s so hard
So hard to plant it in my soul
It’s a melancholy feeling
Surprises me because of
The beauty I get to see
The beauty of death
Bleeding and broken hearts,
Injury of betrayal,
Lost love and anger.
I’ve not lost faith
I plod on because life goes on
And so does the beauty of sorrow.



You Are…
My thoughts were sad
My heart was ill
Used to wish to the world
Need someone to fill the blank
Then you came along to answer my prayers
Like the blissful rainbow from the clouds
I saw a world with more beauty
Larger than life, my life became
You are the gift
You are the boon
You are the answer to my prayers
You are my love
I want to dance
To touch the stars
Wanted someone to hold my hands
And promise me “I‘ll be there”
Life goes a long way
You and I’ll stay
Close, till the end of the road
Till the end of our days.



I m in The Blues
Why is it, just why is it?
I feel the sun’s setting
My heart’s downing
Why is it wrong, so wrong?
Ever since I’ve come here,
To find no one near.
Its not that I m alone
Or lost something of my own
I’m in the blues
Colors are just passing by me
Changes have come in the rhythm and rhyme
But I just can’t adjust this time
Because I‘m in the blues
What is it, what do I want?
Do I want something to call as mine?
Or someone to ask me, if I m fine…
Could someone tell me why?
Time just goes dragging by
Why the night is so black?
And the world is underwater…


Friday, April 6, 2007

My Poems

1. I watch you…….
I watch u every moment
I watch u thru my heartYou shed tears,ur sad that m gone
Im here always in ur heart
Im here always in ur memories
Life is like this,its gives us shocks
Buts it on us to make them nice
Love is not jus togetherness
It’s a flame kept forever alive
We fell in love,we were lucky
Now show the world,how it is done
Spread this magic feeling around
Don be sad that im gone
Life is a battle n u got to move on
Let me not keep uIn this museum of love
Move on,my dear,live life
Im with u alwaysAlways watchin u……

2. Blank Minds
Look in to the horizon
U see infinityWatch the universe
As it travels on into immeasurable distances
What are we made of?
Sand, just more n more of worthlessness
What do we call ourselves?
The homo sapiens of the highest order
Turning back to mere sand, how come?!!!!!
The question remains unanswered
We are nothing
Out of nothingness, something comes out
We are like the black hole
Staring into the blackest void
How do we fill it?
With even more of black
Look at the rainbow
Its filled with colurs
But that’s an illusion
An illusion on our blank minds
Nothings forever
But we say forever is forever
How is that possible?
Ever thought about it………
All unanswered questions
All unfinished business
Our minds are blank
And we come down to a single point
That’s us, this small dot………

3. Where do I Belong?
I know not
The place to where I belong.
Is it to my country,Or to this species called humanity?
Is it to God
Or to this farce called religion?
Where do I belong?
Never yet found a home of my own.
Never yet found a love that will stay.
I dream of a place,
Far into the future,
Where love comes for free,
And where home is like home.
Where everything is genuine,And falsehood is absent.
I envy none of those,
Who have a home of theirs
Cos Im free and flow….
Towards the love that I see.
Where do I belong?
I ask myselfLooking for an answer,
I scan familiar faces.
Noone knows, as of now
But I ll know one day.
Till then I ll wait……

4. Passion is Hard
Is it so hard to let go
Is it so hard to hold on
I have my aims and my dreams
But why do I lose interest?
Passion is hard
For me, its a struggle to breath on
Enjoyment is bliss
But where do I set my limits?
Im going on a path
Which sees no end
Ive lost friends
Ive lost love
But I cant complain
Cos letting go, comes easy for me
However passion is hard
Life is not a bed of roses
But for me, it’s a personal heaven
Passion is hard
That’s my excuse and my doom

5. Away From Home
Ive come a long way
Crossed miles and miles
Had a long journey
Now im far away from home
When I look back sweet pain fills my heart
A longing shoots through
To retrace my steps
Back to my mother’s womb
Rest in her comfortable cocoon
Not to know the troubles
Oh what pleasure it would be…
In my book of life
There is a list of mistakes
Also that of achievements
But why is it
That mistakes rule my life
In my journey im all by myself
Im all I have
My loved ones have left me
To fend for myself
To make me independent
The gesture is good
But im far away from home……..

6. Never Seen This Kind of Love
Where is the heartburn?
Where is the sweet pain?
Never seen this kind of love
Where love is for others to call
While its life that we actually live
Not like in dreams
Not like the surreal fantasies
Never seen this kind of love
Where everything is for real
And there is always a difference
Passion is in the words
In the touch of the lovers
And that’s what I generally see
Stone cold is not what I meant
But it’s something deeper
From anything else I have felt before
Never seen this kind of love
Where love is unseen, unheard
But its present in every breath I take
Strange like the twilight zone
We are neither here nor there
My thoughts are fuzzy
But I sure know, he is with me
In the present…
And will always be.

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

wat t hell!!

Hi all
The era din end. I'm still using the same old number. Guess i accepted defeats in the hands of consumerism and could not stay without the newer version of the idiot box in my hand to keep me busy. It is a bane as well as a boon, but more of a bane. Yeah, right, u can keep in touch with your near dear ones, your b/f, g/f, whoever, essential during times of emergencies but oh my god!! there is still a limit. I can actually see people switch from television sets to mobile handsets. Talk about the era of the IDIOT BOX II. But I'm not surprised n I'm not worried cos soon some new gadget will be introduced, (god only knows what!!) and mankind will be stuck to that and ill follow the crowd. Thats what we are meant to do right?! Path of moderation is too far away to reach and trying to be different is just a myth. Well thats all for now folks, see ya...

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

the end of an era

17/03/07
Hey! This is nothing fancy or historic. I am changing my phone number that’s all. It does hurt, saying farewell to my airtel number. It has stood by me thru thick and thin. It has taught me lots of lessons, relieved me of lot of problems, troubled me horribly too, gave me lot of new friends of whom I was not aware of, outside the world of connectivity, the list goes on. And because of all this history we shared, I feel like giving it a befitting farewell. No offence dear number, but I am a customer and when I lose satisfaction in the services provided, I got to look for new pastures. That’s what I am doing. Plus two years is a long time to spend with a mobile number. I have not spent that much time even with my boyfriend. This means I have given you more importance than anything in my life. I fed you with all the recharges available. And whenever you cried because of your hunger, I starved myself to feed you. I entered the world of groveling, poverty, borrowing, but I never let go of you. Be it, when I am eating, bathing, sleeping, walking, every moment of my life, I have kept you close to my heart, listening to your heartbeat. Dear number, I depended on your happiness for mine. Well let’s not overdo it. People, I think you must have got the whole idea. Till the next era begins (till I find the next good connection, the search is on), its bi bi for me from the world of connectivity.

an important realisation

21/01/07
Sometimes there are occasional reminders in ur lives which makes u realize that the time allotted to u and ur loved ones is very less on this earth. This happened especially once when my father talked to me last night. I told him that when he grows old and invalid, he is going to face a lot of trouble cos he is so egoistic and has this great pride in himself of not being dependant on anybody. He replied saying that he is of different material and would die rather than depending on anybody for his need. This came as a rude shock to me cos now that its his upper middle age, the time when he would come to such a stage is coming soon. Youth is not for forever.
What’s to be understood is that being dependant on ur loved ones, with hand to hold, a shoulder to rely on, is nothing degrading. It is a reward for a lifetime, for a person who is worked for his family all his life. A chance for his family to pay back. Hope dad realizes it.
What I understood is that when ur loved ones leave u forever, u realize the vast impression they leave in ur lives, their gift of time to u, their love. Felt that way when my granddad left, my friends left for other schools, the time spent with them I would always treasure….

an extract from a book

20/01/07
A thought transfixed me for the first time in my life. I saw the truth, as it is sent into a song by so many poets, proclaimed as the final wisdom by so many thinkers. The truth that, love is the ultimate and highest goal to which man can aspire. Then I grasped the meaning of the greatest secret that human poetry, human thought and belief have to impart: the salvation of man is through love and in love. I understood how a man who has nothing in this world still may know bliss, be it only for a brief moment, in the contemplation of his beloved. In a position of utter desolation, when a man cant express himself in positive action, when his only achievement may consist in enduring his sufferings in the right way- an honorable way- in such a position man can thru loving contemplation of the image he carries of his beloved, achieve fulfillment. For the first time in my life I was able to understand the meaning of the words, “The angels are lost in perpetual contemplation of an infinite glory.”
I knew only one thing- that I have learnt well by now. Love goes far beyond the physical person of the beloved. It finds its deepest meaning in his spiritual being, his inner self. Whether or not he is actually present, whether or not he is alive at all, ceases somehow to be of importance.
“Set me like a seal upon thy heart, love is as strong as death.”

my thoughts on love

16/03/07
Here are some shayaris which m very sure only folks who know hindi will understand. But others don get disheartened cos there are more tid-bits coming up from the drifter… Wrote them thinking about all the hearts I have broken. They’ll mend I know but what about me, the sinner?? Ah the pain of being in love n then getting out of it is something. Try it out people.

Dil jale meri aahon se
Mere mehboob ke pukar me
Mohabath ye meri mauth hai
Diwane samajhthe hain, yeh jan hai

Aankhon se ashk yun gire
Jalna jalana to khel hai
Har baar pyar ek dokha
Magar ye dal dal zindagi hai

Is pagalpan ne maar dala
Hai is pyar ke jhaunke ne
Khuda ne bhi kya ajeeb khel khela
Kambakt ishq ko janm diya
Banaya ise yahan ka riwaj
Jo hume mare aur hum mare

Mauth mile use
Jo aise na mare
Ye jaaam me jo nasha hai
Dua karoon,ye sabko mile

Ye jhalak hai mere dil ki
Sunlo diwano,dilwalon
Pyar karna ek saza hai
Is gunah ko apnalo

Tumhein ye dil shauk se de dun
Tumhari ye dosthi mein shauk se jhel lun

Is dil ki galiyon me aya karo
Kadmon se rah ko chuma karo
Ye dil tumhara ho jaye
Tum is kadar jo hume chaha karo

Ret par naam likha karte nahin
Ret par naam tika karte nahin
Log hume kehte hain pathar dil
Pathar par se naam kabhi mit tha nahin

Anjan ajnabee se mulakat hui
Aankhon hi aankhon mein duri mit gayi
Khoobiyon se to pyar hota hi hai
Mohabbath ho gayi aapki kamiyon se bhi

Uthre jo aapke dil ki gehrayi me
Mehfil ke bhi tanhayiyon me
Dhoondha aapko is tarah
Dekhne lagi aapko apni hi parchayiyon me

Sapnon me khoye rehte the
Hum bhari jagahon me akele the
Aapke ane se duniya itni badli
Bhari jagahon me kya, akelepan me bhi
Hum apke khyalon me mehfus hain

Dil ka kya, kabhi idhar to udhar
Mohabbath ka kya, kabhi milna to kabhi khona
Magar aye yaar teri dosthi
Rahe humesha saath me, na is par na us par